Indulgence:
i found myself becoming almost a hermit recently, when i was zipping around town(oh yes, i have been back in sin for about a week now) on my own, wandering thru malls searching for kitchen wares and towels, hunting for a bluetooth device that enables me to talk in the car without inserting any stuffs to my ears(got it but failed to work after three days of usage! UGGH!) and at the same time averting stares from strangers who thought i am who i am, or question if i am who i am and also looks that spelled interest…hmmm… Somehow, one step followed the other and i eased myself through grounds that many has trodden upon and getting from pt a to pt b without any preambles or a nod of acknowledgement.. i did stuff that i set out to do and completed them..i worked feverishly on my new place and it turned out just the way i envisioned it to be( almost..i think..for i am forever bursting with new ideas and details to be added or taken away..fortunately this is the seventh month which means that i am not able to shift in thus i could have all this time to polish it up to meet all my requirements…)
i set out to pursue one long standing dream of mine, which was a good long fourteen years of dreaming, a dream that i have always pinned it down as a dream and at one point, this dream almost became a reality but went down the drain.The years that followed grieved me miserably and every glimpse or notion of that dream triggered a shot of pain thru my aching heart..i pursued it once more this time and the emancipiation of this dream is so intense that i almost became oblivious to the rest of the world, just like this dream has been the centre of my being for the fateful 14 years that has gone by. though the signs are promising and seems like this time round it might become a reality, i choose not to scream on top of me lungs till the fat lady sings! keeping my fingers crossed for the realisation of that wish, so crossed that probably everyone else around me would be crossed, for reasons that only i would know. Crossed or not, that’s their take,for it dawned on me (since sometime last month after tons of flying around and going places), that we really should not take time for granted and we should really not waste our time on things that doesn’t matter, people that doesn’t matter and spend time on things that matters..and in many cases, it usually meant ourselves. Yup, ourselves..Let’s look at it from another angle.
Say, how many times have we detour our courses for the sake of another,
changed our lifestyle for another,
changed our hairstyle for another,
changed our style of dressing for another? You got the picture? GOOD!
Maybe its time for us to live our lives more for ourselves( not just for ourselves but more for ourselves as i really don’t want to go and become a self centred a*… ya?)and perhaps while setting out to do this you might start to feel happier…
Yup.. that’s what i have been doing recently and you know what?
It felt really good..so good that i think i am even starting to eat right and packing on a few extra pounds but what the …hmm…it felt just ….right!
Hello everyone, my name is bryan and i have been indulging myself!
on August 12th, 2008 at 3:06 pm
i feel tt you are really an emotional guy and i feel u had become mature thru all these years..
你给我的感觉 是you are a personwho 很 疼爱 to someone u love.
on August 12th, 2008 at 8:12 pm
It’s great to know you been indulging yourself! When you can love and pamper yourself, you can have room for others. Cheers!
on August 12th, 2008 at 11:52 pm
I am happy to see you are happy. I always admire people who know what he/she wants and strive and work towards the goal. Whether you achieve your goals ultimately, though it is impt, it is not as impt as the process and experience you gain.
You are right, time pass so quickly. A big problem today may seem like nothing a long time later, and you will have a good laugh on why you are being so silly. That’s how miraculous life is right…so treasure what we have! Yeah! Wish you success in achieving your long awaited dream sincerely!
on August 13th, 2008 at 1:52 am
Has been following your blog for a while .. new place .. would love to see it .. you will post pics of it up soon rite?
on August 13th, 2008 at 7:09 am
indulgence in yourself is something you should do to reward yourself, and you are doing it right now, and that’s great!
wishing you happy indulgence! but sometimes do think of us…
on August 13th, 2008 at 11:42 am
Sorry but have lol @ “averting stares from strangers who thought i am who i am, or question if i am who i am and also looks that spelled interest” isn’t it great to be f-a-m-o-u-s? haha!
Thank you for such an open-heart-sharing, I wonder what is your dream… does it has connection with your Home Decor show?As in Interior Designer? Reading what you write on “The years that followed grieved me miserably and every glimpse or notion of that dream triggered a shot of pain thru my aching heart” makes me wonder what had happened that rend your heart so badly… I am glad you came out of that OK, well, you seems OK to me now. At least you are eating, lol.
“packing on a few extra pounds”? No leh, looking at your picture, you still look Fit and Trimmed and Handsome of coz’. The first picture looks so Dreamy~ haha
Sometimes, living for others doesn’t necessary means wasting our time, it depends on who is it/what it is. Can still has nice consequences… things/people that doesn’t matter could be only of our own opinion, they may still appreciate(in secret) our attentions… for me, I would still do it even if they don’t deserve my frenetic-ness. haha
Eg. I have stop wearing watches, afraid that it might scratch my baby’s bottom when I carry her, lol. Does she deserve my loving kindness? Would she appreciate my thoughtfulness? I guess she is too young to know to be grateful. I’d change my lifestyle(no watches), my hairstyle(tied it up in case she eat my hair), my style of dressing(er… more pants than dress to easier handling of baby when we are out and about) All these knowing that when she might still become disobedient and give me heataches when she grow up.
Sometimes, some poeple just don’t deserve our love, but we still love them anyhow, and that’s another kind of indulgence, at least it won’t make you fat, lol.
Aiyah… sorry for being so long winded, age is catching up with me that’s why, hehe.
Love to read your update and welcome back to Singapore! Did you get to celebrate Singapore’s 43rd birthday?
Stay Cheery!
Lyd
on August 13th, 2008 at 12:49 pm
Hi Bryan,
How I wish, I could be like you and really indulging myself and lift up all my burdens. It seems like you have already get on to another phase in life. Building up a more carefree and charismatic personality.
Looking forward to your love life too.
Jiao you =)
on August 14th, 2008 at 4:26 am
Hi Bryan,
Found your website during the search for other matter. Agreed with what you have shared. Everyone goes thru ups and downs in life, it is a matter of how we handle it, how our mind perceive it. Isn’t it a blessing when we see thing in a different point of view, after all we realize that it is in fact not a matter….:) The possitive mind brings sunlight, fear only when we stop upgrading our life in possitive mind development….
Have a blessed one……Glad to see you here..Take Care
on August 14th, 2008 at 11:59 pm
Good for you.. that u had u fulfilled ur dream. If its me..haha.. give me 2-3 years..that dream will only still be a dreamm….heh..
Anyway, 开心就好..Cheerz
on August 15th, 2008 at 10:27 pm
Hello! Bryan
It is good to see you writing on your blog again… You seem to have stopped blogging for quite a while…
Take care and have a blessed weekend!
boyi
on August 19th, 2008 at 9:18 pm
It has been a while since you last updated your blog. It is nice reading what you are saying. Sometimes in our lives, we are doing things that are for others to see and watch. It seems not being oneself.
Our lifespan is limited and therefore I always have the notion of being yourself and enjoy what you want to do in life. Or else you might face regret at the brief moment of death. So, in my daily life, I simply do things that I wanted to and enjoy every minute of it without worrying of external factors. When I was young, there were restriction by my parents not to do this or that. Once I am independent, I do not want myself to be restricted by external factors so I am living the life I feel best for myself. It is always feeling best when you are yourself. I know a few people have to live their lives under pretence and putting up false faces. Why suffer this way of torture? Luckily for my family, we are free from it.
I am happy for you as I see that you have found yourself!
Take care and be happy!
Edward Han
http://www.travelportal.org
on August 19th, 2008 at 11:48 pm
hi bryan,
i found your site from my fren’s blog and i enjoyed reading it! so much about you, it opened my eyes to knowing the real you and your thoughts. i couldn’t agree any more than you do .. its like when you’re so overwhelmed with work, with responsibilities… many a times we’ve lost ourselves.. lost our way, our direction.. losing the ability to take care of our own needs but focusing on others..
i guess you’ll know where i’m coming from… its not to drop all our responsibilities totally but to allocate more time to ourselves
hope to see more updates from you~
till then.. be blessed and to good health~!
cheers
on August 23rd, 2008 at 7:42 am
hope everything is well
care for nobody but yourself
care for those who care
take care and you can choose to care or not to care
regards,
weiz
on August 23rd, 2008 at 10:09 pm
Hmmmm….thanks for your sharing…it’s really hard to understand what an aquarius man is thinking cos they are just too complicated & a loner at times , maybe they do enjoy this solitute alot…..
I love writing at mine own facebook too cos i feel writing is a form of therapy to me & it’s a good way to heal my wounded soul sometimes..
Take Good care always…
on August 26th, 2008 at 8:13 pm
I wish I could do some of what you do. I love reading your blogs, always lifts my spirit. I am glad you are back home. I wish I could have more time to myself as well, however that would be sacrificing to others, and too many others need me. I feel as I am being pulled at all corners of myself, and barely and part of myself for me. Just once, I would like to be greedy (not saying you are greedy) and just have me for me, even if it is for a little while, but alas…I can’t do that, not just yet. I am glad for you…enjoy your time for yourself…you can enjoy it for the both of us…
Best Wishes..
Becky
on August 27th, 2008 at 5:54 pm
Hello !
Nice blog you’d!
Take care yoz. Hope to see more esp. Bai Jia Le coming up! I love your design.!
Do drop by to my website too. http://www.youth-cis.blogspot.com
on August 28th, 2008 at 10:03 am
No matter wat dream you have, JIA YOU! I must say that when you first came into the industry, I did not really like you but over the years as I had a chance to see you for who you really are and not just the facade on TV… I found that I rather like you
Yes, it is always good to be ourselves and be true.. it is a feeling of freedom that money can never buy 
Anyway, Jia You! I know whatever you set out to do, you will surely achieve it! *hugz and love*
on August 30th, 2008 at 8:43 pm
hi bryan!
it has been a long time since i ever visited ur blog! hmm! just love reading ur blog! cause i will feel refreshed! 
hmmm! i miss you you know! cause i wanna watch more of ur shows!!! 
all ur fans are waiting! 
jia you! Love u bryan! 
DDD
on September 1st, 2008 at 9:40 am
The recruitment trailer for ur new prog is on air liao (http://8.mediacorptv.sg/SnackBar.aspx?kw=recruitment&iid=EDC080829-0000001), great to see u on tv again!
on September 2nd, 2008 at 7:19 pm
myfanwy, i saw the advert on ch 8 too, wonder how the show will be like??
on September 4th, 2008 at 12:42 pm
Cool. You look very humorous in tv but so inner on your blog. Nice pictures of your trip, i suppose you could be a freelance photographer (:
on September 5th, 2008 at 12:13 am
Hey bryan,
whatever it is, live life to the fullest! ^^
P/S: I love the lamp & the mirror in your first photo! Haha
on September 5th, 2008 at 12:44 am
Hi Bryan, nice blog..and enlightening points too
on September 5th, 2008 at 11:56 pm
Hey bryan! Please update..i can see worms in your blog liao..haha.
Qian nv you hun is showing on channel 8..me miss the show a lot.
Take care..smile always. ^-^
on September 18th, 2008 at 9:54 pm
Indulgence…Good!
Pamper yourself… everyone deserve to pamper themselves in this COLD COLD world!
Take care and hope you can find happiness!
on November 17th, 2008 at 4:55 am
嗨，Bryan!!好久不见..你好吗？ 最近你一定很忙~不管你在忙。记得要把身体照顾好~知道吗？
我最近真的好想你~想着，以前追你真的好快乐~ 这次，因为工作的关系我都没有时间下去看你。。所以，我真的很抱歉~~我们不在你的身边的时候你会想起，我们吗？哈哈~~ 希望会，因为我不管在哪里，对你的支持永远不变~知道了吗？
好了，很晚了，我要去睡了~晚安了~我祝你有个美好的美梦~~加油~ 三只小猪的“大猪”
on November 26th, 2008 at 2:39 am
Oh Bryan ………. Please blog soooooooooooooooooooon. =) I have been checking in for new updates.
on January 21st, 2009 at 3:07 pm
HELLO(=
Nice blogg.
nice personality.
Great person!
on February 10th, 2009 at 11:51 am
Hi!Bryan How Are you.l so happy to see u on T.V again.